so lately i have been well aware that every life has an expiration date. every life could end today. every regret cannot be put off. life cannot be put off. life can end right now. and please —> never regret and never ever take anything or anyone for granted. especially if you cannot live without them. i am living a lie. i am living with regrets. i cannot take my own advice because i am not strong enough. i am not good enough. i was never good enough. please, understand life is not promised to anyone. it took my losing my life to understand and realize that. do not let your life expire with regrets or should-haves. do not let your life expire without those you love being aware of what you mean to them. after this post, i have many people to talk to. many people that i miss and need in my life. many of which will not allow it. many of which will, again, make promises and turn me away. but i need to try. i need to know i tried. i need to know if i died today, the people i love would know i tried.