i cant sleep. i cant breath. crying. shaking. fear. regret.

the more i think, the more i panic.

scared. pain. yearning. passion.

loss of comfort and who i am.

loss of love.

loss of myself.

my fault. hes an angel. i neglected it. and him. and my situation.

“you never know what you have till its gone”

tears, embarrassment, anxiety, longing.

death. heart hurts. mourning.

lifeless. bad decisions. bad reputations.

you were always right. you always knew.

you gave up on me. i never gave up.

im a lier. youre my only truth.

love me or i have to let go.

lack of honesty. ill never trust again. ill never believe again.

ill never be the same.

who the hell am i? who the hall have i become?

ill never be the same. unless i have you by my side telling me i can be.

ill never believe it from anyone else.

you are my rock. without you i am drifting. to no where good.

no safety. i am lost. i am hurt. ill never feel alright unless i have you.

you are happy. happy for you. but not really. thats a lie. how can you be happy?

how can you care so little about the hurt i am feeling and the mistakes im making?

how can you drop me? how can you not belive me? trust me. come back. i need you.

youve been there. i have no one now. i go to you when i am most vulnerable. now i am shelterless.

kiss me. talk to me. hold me. i miss the comfort.

i cant trust anyone with my heart. not ever again. ill never let someone in.

this will never happen to me again. i am empty. you hold my insides. dont ever let them go.

please stop stomping on them. thats hurts. much more than anything i ever thought i could feel.

you still have mine, and you could care less. you dont realized i am i hollow aimless bubble without you.

no where to go. nowhere to be. nothing to look forward to. my heart is no longer warmed with the thought of you.

it burns. and pains me. and makes me wants to run away and never come back.

selfish. never told you how much you meant to me.

stupidity. love. death. save me. love me. talk to me. comfort me. killing me.

give it back. all of it. i dont want that. keep it. treasure it. realize you have control. stop making me hurt. leave me alone. talk to me.

please believe me. i need you baby. i need you.